I'M A TAI TAI

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2009-01-03T23:07:00.000+08:00

hi, ive decided to kinda abandon this blog because its really tiring to maintain one , hence, ive seek solace in another place. Wouldnt be closing this one because there are so many old archives, aww memories, so, for my friends, you know the url, till then. (:

Break even, good times.

2008-12-16T23:01:00.002+08:00

If this is still one of the places you hop onto, read on.
I left this space for so long that it feels strange , but,
while im away, this will be my connection to the world.

My dear friends, you know how lengthy i can get and
how i like to repeat myself over and over again,
i may be camwhoring all alone,
climbing the caves and watching those living things,
and reporting to you late, by a few hours.
Thank you to Nad, i am able to.

My friends, i will only be conveying my thoughts ,
my feelings, my weird sight , and analysis on events, things
and everything that happen to me.
I CAN FEEL SO MUCH RIGHT NOW,
omg.
I will be so segregated from EARTH and HUMANS,
but, i will also find a cool place that serves aweeeeesome coffee,and
a pretty outdoor seat, so that i can smoke some cheap cigarette and type away,
also, shed a few tears, and maybe try to write a story.
ii am done here as for now.
Off i go , and i see you soon here. SPECIALLY FOR THE PRIVILEDGED FEW. (:

Come alive, come alive on friday night.

2008-10-17T18:25:00.033+08:00

All emotions tangled up in me, as i question my friendship with you.
After all i think i'm still fucking young to think of such issues,
but, hell are you important to me.

Its Friday night and i'm cooped up at home,
never mind what happened that destroyed my plans,
but your reaction towards me was too much to behold.

Never mind, i will be alright after a while.

Lets talk about something happier.
I stumbled upon a designer, Christian Audigier,
who happened to be seen having the same HAND SIGN AS ME!
LOOK!

Okay, i actually managed to cajole several people to pose like that too, =D
Evidence:

Yay , im using facebook finally,
and its lots of fun i swear!
(:
Know, i managed to look for my kindergarden partner
who is in CA now. gosh, FB rocks.
And nad whos always trying to FB war with me. (:

This is a bad bad time to get hooked on FB!

An outfit is not complete till someone praises it.
Last nights grad was dope. And thank you all
for the praises, omg left me so goddamnit happy (:
Oh no, took hundreds of photos and itll take years to upload them,
so here are the finest selection, and the cutest ones of my classmates,
ENJOY.

WEE. LONG LONG NO BLOG! pardon the language

2008-10-12T19:41:00.002+08:00

Today will be my last entry till exams are over,
except if i do feel the need to rant about any overwhelming stress,
then again, i shouldnt rant about it,
i need that !

Many people complained that they cannot wait to get out of M.I,
honestly,
i do not regret my decision of ever choosing M.I,
because i have the most wonderful friends right now,
no doubt i made some terribly bad choices at choosing certain friends
who happen to be a thief, liar, and have a questionable hygiene issue.
I wish the person all the best.

It is always wise to look forward instead of looking back!
ciao.

Happeey bubbleee teeea pee-ple!

Agōniā

2008-10-05T08:52:00.002+08:00

I am here again. ):
I may be suffering from a "terminal illness" . ):
This is no joke man.
So, staying at home for 3 days is plain insanity,
i tried to intoxicate myself by puffing on two sticks and
reading poems aloud,after a lecturing session
by none other than a monstermeya teacher.

Ya guys know poets are often in a drunken or "high"
state of mind when they write those melodramatic poems,
or theyve alreadygone mad. It didn't work out for me.

ill be back. stay tuned for more rantings.

2008-10-04T20:48:00.002+08:00

Today i wished i was never here, battling this all alone,
feeling that the whole world is in-debt to me.
I lay on my bed awaiting my white blood cells losing its war against
the viruses,
i plastered a smile, unsure of the future as madness drove into me.
When everyone else beside me fall into the war,
i questioned myself,
what went wrong?

Determined

2008-10-01T20:13:00.004+08:00

Before i regret my actions, not like i don't already,
i am getting down to my studies.
No more procrastination,
thus, to end it all,
im saying ciao with a few pictures.

Relief

2008-09-29T18:16:00.010+08:00

I had a great cry, buckets of tears kept rolling down my face.
Random stupid photos of generally pork and me with a couple of randy shots.
As you can see, my friend with the most shots look pretty funny, but he's
my bestbestrapperfriend. Thanks dude, for last night, sorry dude again for last night.

2008-09-29T17:21:00.001+08:00

I never felt that lousy in my life.

2008-09-27T22:34:00.008+08:00

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Day and Night Flush

2008-09-21T21:59:00.010+08:00

20th Sept: The pre-celebration

Yesterday's long and tedious night was an awesome affair.
Thank you very much to those involved in the preparations,
You've managed well to get both sharbs and me embarrassed with those
-props- =?
And to tayacaca, nell, and nad who managed to fool us all,
eeeee, i was jumping for joy when i saw you people!

After many many shots and mixtures i managed to stay sober, ( so do sharbs.erm.)
and we trek up Fort Canning in those menacing heels,
nah, not killer, not to me...
and checked in Hilton. =D

Okay, these are the hilarious videos we've made,
its super x-rated, and we made a fool out of ourselves,
but the thing is, its thoroughly enjoying, and amusing ourselves.

Day flush, i meant facial flush.
3 days ago, i ordered Brazilian Capirinha ,
and my disgusting mouth made me vomit out the words
: another shot of malibu pls:
Sharbs and i , knocked out facially at 5pm. ):

P.s. Different kind of people conglomerate to become great friends? Tay, i agree.
To request for xrated videos, HB pls pm me. Ive got no cheek to load them up.!

I WILL UPDATE BY 6AM. I KNOW!

2008-09-21T19:10:00.003+08:00

Depart for hell.

2008-09-08T21:49:00.002+08:00

I was nursing this terrible terrible "stress and heck my hair" fit
and then a random phone call from Thailand rescued me.

Thanasan, you are my saviour from hell,
i was totally figuring out what to do to ease the madness,
Eg:
1. Buying popping chocolates
2. Buying wonka's jelly
3. Laughing at Nigel
4. Singing
5. Tousling my hair

To no avail.

Then your phone call came, i became hysterical,
and the next instant,
I WAS OKAY. Thank you for coming back from CHINA.

Finally, may i conclude that my never exhaustive meetings with my friends
became indisposable to me.
Thank you.

Bouts of ... ...

2008-09-08T00:42:00.002+08:00

This is my refuge,
i am currently suffering an emotional breakdown,
a very bad one.

Maybe,
by trying to express myself here irregardless of whatsoever whoever says,
i am able to convince myself that blogging do alleviate some of your
"mental stress".

=(
It is twelve fifty in the morning on my clock
... ...

It is one o two in the morning on my clock,
in the space of seven minutes,
ive made myself a cup of latte, double shot from my dads new coffee maker
that brews all day long...
nah... ... im just rambling on and on...

stop visiting my blog!!
Im such a bore,
i talk about coffee and cancer sticks and food
and sometimes tinge of what i do, and where i go,
and my ramblings of my view of life, and own pourings,
NOTHING VALUABLE.

i am in love with a new line " daughters by obedient sons" and
i am going for a fashion event next week,
and i love my dharlinks ( you bastard stop using my word of dharlink okay ccb copy piece of BABI GORENG"

Close and Tight

2008-09-06T22:34:00.006+08:00

Warning: pictures posted are clearly for entertainment purposes.

I met the usuals and chill my afternoon away,
getting scared for my prelims,
but i thought " its worth it to just spend time chatting away with them"
Then a phone call came,
"Jingyi, i need your help, rush down now at the speed of light to decide on a pair of shoes"

So... ...

I dash to city hall, don in a plait shirt and shorts with riding headgear ):
very bad indeed...but i told myself" Its worth the embarrassment, for my 7 years friend"

i am beginning to feel that i cant do without bana,tay,hilm,nig,nad, heibais and farm.

NIGEL: STOP SCARING ME ON THE PHONE!

The Hiatus

2008-09-01T17:40:00.002+08:00

I apologise for the millionth time for my long absence, credit that to laziness.

My friends are forced to privatise their blogs, and that upset me a lot,
because of prying eyes, and unoriginal tag line(i mean a lot of copying),
i bless those pricks good luck, because those menacing words of yours
to begin with, had nothing to do with you.
I do not wish to call you nasty names,
and i think that i still idolise your bravery, so be a good person.

That aside, I've been basking myself in precious friends company,
and i enjoy every single moment. No more mention of fate or whatsoever,
it should be bliss( Sharbana...)

I have a little adventure in the morning everyday with sharbana,
and from that i knew some new friends, then again, its a bad habit.
Sharbs, only you know what i am talking about.

I really need to apologise to the farm,
i felt like I've been neglecting you guys a lot,
you do know i love the both of you a lot!

shit. blogger is totally crapped up now, i cannot even upload pictures, another day then.
P.s. Thanks to acacia and sharbs, my ugly affairs i.e. the one sided flats are all exposed.
); cb

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2008-08-18T22:51:00.003+08:00

Listening to gossip girl's young folks and all around me by fly leaf,
at the same time doing my literature homework.
Yeah, multi-tasking, totally boorish life.

I'm having one of those, "book a hotel room and have caviar and margaritas and puff your day away"mood.
Much pictures due, and i know i have such lousy blogging frequency.
In fact, ive been keeping a diary these days, that explains.

Those adrenaline in the morning got really risky yeah sharbs?
Thats all i have.

Thank you heibais, you know someone probably gonna quote me off again.

2008-07-31T15:18:00.002+08:00

What was i trying to prove? Ive got no darn idea.
Well, i gave school a miss today,
i told myself that i needed a break from what was tormenting these days.
School, i really don't like.
Whats been motivating me to go to school are really just my friends.

Why do i have a feeling that i may be letting myself down and everyone.
My mom's friend committed suicide yesterday, it was due to depression.
I question myself hard, spent 50 fucking dollars ; taxi,coffee,food,intoxication, then taxi again
Why am i dreading it after 3 fucking years, why am i not motivated for the last few months. why?
Fiddlesticks.

Is this what i really want?
Why am i ranting? Or is this the aftereffects of 5 cancer sticks.

s^3 g.

2008-07-17T17:34:00.005+08:00

I do not know what motivated me to type this post, but i am sure that it will please my friends.
Recently, ive been neglecting quite a few of my friends, i apologise , i was sick p and m. ):

Immense pressure right now, but i shall not elaborate to you strangers out there, because i do
not take delight into sharing issues like that, at least for now. Pardon.
School's being a blast (i guess) =D, its the company.
There, imagine going to school with no friends to laugh along with, I'll die.
The new cafe in school, miserable but at least able to provide me some low quality
caffeine. Thank god. =/

Now, i am posting this 7 things shit which i don't normally do, please don't laugh,
i do it because i was mentioned to do it. Here you go;

7 things that scare you:

1. Ghosts (Vampires, Chinese ghost, Malay Hantu's)
2. Rat form i.e. Including hamsters, gerbils... goodness.
3. Having no money
4. Having no beautiful clothes to wear
5. Having no great friends at all i.e. Hilarious and totally trustful ones.
6. People with body odour
7. Sustained Darkness

Actually i have more than 7.

7 things you like the most:

1. Clothes (Only classic cuts)
2. Telling everyone and repeating myself countless times about my happenings, everyday.
3. Company; Nice and close ones
4. Fags
5. PDAs
6. Having a good laugh
7. Travelling

I have more than 7 again.

7 important things in my room:

1. Computer
2. Phone
3. Television
4. Cable
5. Air-conditioner
6. Closet
7. Mirrors

7 random facts about me:

1. I am really particular about bad smell i.e. B.O, bad breath...and i will describe the smell to the people around me in great detail E.g. Oh, fuck, there's a sour tangy smell.
2. I really love caffeine; I really hate lousy coffee, but well, sometimes, you have no choice.
3. I am really sick, i love to put up an outfit and display them in my closet.
4. I really only love high heels; The higher the better, i only wear flats and slippers if it is essential i.e. Raining, blisters, moody or because those flats are really gorgeous.
5. I really treasure my friends.
6. My things are always stolen or misplaced. Very true.
7. I hate to wear underwear. Don laugh.

7 things i plan to do before i die:

1. Have 2 Husky's, 2 G. Retrievers, A Horse house under one roof.
2. Have a great totally orgasmic non-stop sex
3. Travel to the wonders on Earth
4. Fly all my good friends in a hot air balloon to have a picnic in it while cruising over the oceans and rain forests or fly them in my private jet.
5. Have my friends to fly from where ever they are to where ever i am to have tea in the streets of some lovely romantic city.
6. Perform all the exciting adrenaline pumping sports.
7. Providing happiness for all the people i treasure around me.

I want to add, i really want to contribute to mankind, something great, or even make miracles for animals, i know it sounds foolish.

7 things i can do:

1. Dress appropriately to occasion ( Sometimes people think i am way over, but i am just being me ): )
2. Dress non-stop for 5 hrs.
3. Laugh continuously till tears stream down and stomach hurt, but still laugh
4. Point out the slightest flaw of everyone
5. Comment about everything
6. Watch a drama consisting 167 episodes in few days time
7. I can kill a cockroach, with no mercy.

7 things i can't do:

1. Save up for rainy days
2. Not laughing for two consecutive days.
3. Stop commenting
4. Stop wearing heels
5. Stop having fun
6. Wear horrible clothes
7. ?

This is hard.

7 things you can attract your opposite sex:

1. i got no fucking idea.

7 things i say often:

1. ____ Fuck.
2. Nechi
3. Imitatation ; "Don let me get started on your face, because when i start i swear to god... "
4. Names of people, over and over again. E.g. Randy, 2 seconds later, Randy... .... well you get it.
5. Ku ma O
6. You've got " Eyeshit" or " Noseshit".
7. Any vulgarities in any lauguage.

The 7 people to do this survery:

1. Sharbana Ren NIE
2. Tay Cher, okaysure.
3. Nelly
4. Nadiah
5. Hilmi
6. Luangjinda Thanasan
7. You, who is checking out my site.

Farm did it already, check out Randy's, it really cracked me up.

As promised, the pictures from Nelly's, blogger's screwed up now, maybe ill upload them tomorrow, i waited 20 fucking minutes to no avail.

Ciao.

-this post gonna suck shit

2008-07-13T19:12:00.002+08:00

It was nelly's birthday,well, she proved to me that women can be crazy drivers... ...
But that was fucking hardcore, its gonna be me the driver the end of the year OKAY.
Acacia, hilmi and the others, you fools missed the fun man.
But i still miss you guys right now.
I will post the pictures immediately after they send me them.
Till then.

... .. there i go again, farm i miss you guys and we are meeting on tues ok.
Jordus, its tea at royal this coming week okay,ill bring the AX shirt.
And heibai, i see you guys practically everyday, driving me crazy man, =\

The long break

2008-07-12T21:30:00.003+08:00

I apologise for my long absence.
i hadnt been feeling well,
and all i waned to do was to sleep.

i apologis once again,i will be getting my
frequency up once im done with tomorrow's picnic. thanks.

HIGHLIGHT

2008-06-10T21:17:00.068+08:00

I apologise for my poor blogging frequency, honestly, ive been too lazy to give any fuck about it.

Cliche it may be, just yesterday while daydreaming in bed, something dawned upon me,
that i am such a lucky girl; im meaning that i have so many great friends,
Farm who is always "i swear to god" always there to crack me up,
Heibais who always know when and what song i am going to start bursting their eardrums,
stupid MTVs and catwalks i do in school, and even tolerating my endless "retold" storytelling sessions.
My goodness,i am one hell of a fucking irritant. I apologise.

On the other hand, shall i elaborate my events with pictures?

The good thing about having a friend who has a supercool car with a sunroof?
Ans: Taking pictures of "live protest", its kinda blurred because Ken was speeding away from the fight that was about to break out.

My dear ken, i fucking miss you already mofo.

(my absolutely so "fly" friend-luscious lips)

Room service with fucktastic food

Massage

A&W

Our favourite spot in the room

Busying myself with my favourite purchase: Jo Malone

Cinema much fucking better than my lovely country's

Skyday;skygolf, skyswim,sky dining (;

I know, i know theres dunkin here, but i cant help but post,because we were the only
customers there.

Cigarettes galore

Cigars galore too.

Au Bon Pain

Those dogs for sale at the flea market, i swear to god are all
that super cute that i almost died saying to every single
puppy " SO CUTE, YOU ARE SO CUTE".
Biased it may be, my love for dogs only go out to cute ones,
ugly ones can fuck off; sorry. But so anyway, acacia's way too
afraid of any animal, so i bet she hated me at that moment because we
practically paused at every store with super adorable puppies, and i will
scream out loud my fav phrase.

Omg, do take note of this picture, there is actually
a cover on top of the puppies to prevent them from
leaping out, but they are practically crouching,
that is way too inhumane, so i look at the shop person and said
" fuck you, do you know humanity".

Hair Braiding

I have to admit, the trip was nothing but awesome.
Hear this, ever heard of someone snoring in the cinema?
I mean snoring like a pig and so i took a picture with flash,
anyone interested in taking a look, just text me.

Going back the calender, it was hilmi's surprise birthday celebration.

After losing 2 retainers, my third broke into two yesterday, some prick
must have thrown something hard on my bag. Fuck.
):
This entry took me days to complete, and im proud to say, you have
reached the end of the entry. Thank you. Because of me being everbusy,
i was termed a liar by some cb because i kept delaying the post.

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2008-05-09T22:53:00.002+08:00

I drove myself to insanity, rotting everyday counting down to jet set day.

My trust in people is depleting, and the rate it goes, it is scaring me.

the lost soul... ...

2008-05-06T21:03:00.003+08:00

In this pathetic 21st century, some people still lead an impoverished life.
There is no valid reason to suspend a student anyway you want, because
you want it. I do not fucking care whether you see this entry or not,
its fucking for you. You are indeed what i call, a low-life knave.
Your poor taste in fashion and style horrors me, and send jitters down my spine.
my oh my,

if i ever do dress in those poorly rags erhem i mean clothes of yours,
i would rather meet my fate first than to lead a liveless meagre life like yours.
Taking pleasure in calling up parents, noting names for latecoming.

Please, you vermin, sly old fox, just die. Your entrance into our lives
did impacted us, in a fucking bad way. Your sex life must have had been pathetic, i say,
That explains.

Spare our friend your despicable thinking of how we should behave,
before we ruin you into pieces. cunt.

2008-05-05T23:41:00.002+08:00

I do not even have an inch of inclination to divulge any nor the desire to even begin discussing issues i am
troubling over, right now.

Maybe long solitary walks with **** and coffee/ sweat will calm my nerves.
I often mull over many questions i have for myself, and other people.
Nothing seemed to be the satisfactory answer, i am really lost in this world.

i really really need to fly away and find my answer back.
But, i am so so so glad, that maybe in my myopic world,
i have such letters, such friends and such phonecalls.
Powerful devices, i swear.

2008-05-02T19:35:00.003+08:00

Counting down 20 days... ...
Gosh, i saw my photo in a magazine for an event i went to; Redken tribe show.
Fucking awesome.

2008-04-25T23:50:00.002+08:00

"But what if man had eyes to see the true beauty--the divine beauty, I mean, pure and clear and unalloyed, not clogged with the pollutions of mortality and all the colours and vanities of human life--thither looking, and holding converse with the true beauty simple and divine?" Plato

I thought hard, yes so true. I do not know what is beauty anymore?
Is it just on the superficial level, i.e. skimpy clothes, whorish make-up, good looks... ...

I hate men who judge women's beauty based on that superficial fuck.
man, you are one lowlife mother fucker who eats leftover scraps, son of a fucking mutt bitch,
whoreson third rate homosapiens... why am i so disgusted?

26 days.

fuck april

2008-04-22T18:03:00.002+08:00

The fact that school is considering expulsion, is fucked up.
Bitch trying to examine my morals, even more fucked up.
Stupid, dumb,meaningless, and no reasons phone call to fucked my day.

you fucking mongrel bitch, low class servant, no life beggarly coward.

2008-04-20T22:01:00.009+08:00

Tea.
Happy Meetups.
Bankruptcy.
Dissapointments.
Realisations.
Tea again.
Pork, i really love you. (=
Finally, im jetting off to somewhere this holidays.

Pathetic

2008-04-06T20:02:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was most unfortunate,
don't get me started on what happened... ...

Salon
Porkball
Fashion show
Panics
Freebies
Dilly's
Home

Im pathetically sick of life, school i mean.
I cant wait to get out of singapore, this june.

And why do i empathise with myself so much,
why doi bother. nothing interest me anymore.

Wishing Me Felicity In Life

2008-03-22T21:43:00.003+08:00

The happiness tinged my life, just for a while.
No matter how hard i try, to stay home for a while,
someone just had to ask me out.

Ive been intoxicating myself these days, thus,
the plan to detox starts right away!

2008-03-15T20:58:00.002+08:00

There was this sudden realisation, realising that i've struck friendships
with random people, whom i will never imagine been friends with.
I mean here, true, lasting, warming friendships.

Thank you so much. Everytime i feel fucked up,
you guys crap your way and made me alright.

____________

These days, ive been to extra lessons, coffee, fags, more coffee
and fags. And, meeting up with people i love a lot.

No regrets

2008-03-02T20:54:00.002+08:00

I just have had a tad bit too much of nicotine and caffeine yesterday,
to nurse my wounds.
I feel like some emo-fuck who blogs out their wimpy pathetic lives,
screaming at their own agony.

Fuck me man, but, well, i'm just so affected.
Dood, but, remember? "long-long".
It hadnt changed a bit, god damn i'm serious.

No school tomorrow, means getting coffee in the morning,meeting the usual
folks for sessions and fags, and gossips.

i just found this "im so red "picture, i look so weird.

Terms over.

2008-02-17T16:08:00.023+08:00

I/m pretty glad that terms over, i literally fucked them up, not like i hadnt ever.
Alls well i guess, okhay. And and, i will try to improve my blogging frequency .
Err, and i still see my counters jumping a bit, so yes, i will try.

The day straight after my terms was eddy's birthday, so,
a bit (actually alot) of drinking, and off to the stayover at randy's place.
Gosh was it fun.

Drinking causes me to bloat, my face and everything.
So the next day, i was so bloated like a goldfish i lost
my eyelids! SERIOUS.
dillon, weihow, randy and nigel can vouch for that.

I really don't know how i spent my money, but i brought
a lot of money out and was left with $3 pathetic dollars.
Nice randy treated me to an 80cents prata thankfully,
if not i would have died.

Sometimes, i thank (_) for my friends, they are really those who
will listen to me anytime of the day,
till i cry my eyes sore.

2008-02-03T21:19:00.000+08:00

I feel so judged, for things i've done and i've not.
I feel so maligned for things that happened not my fault.
Thank you to my bestfriend for telling me so much,
and i, really, after so many years realised that life aint a fairytale,
so superficial, so disgusting.

I need a vacation badly to ease my souls,
to escape from reality.
No matter how hard i try,
i end up from where i started from.

The walk the puffs the caffeine was good``
NB: you need it more okay, somethingbetter(invert how wei)

2008-01-08T21:03:00.000+08:00

A thousand million needles pierced through me, please do not judge me.

Overdue Post

2008-01-05T12:56:00.001+08:00

I kinda think that Weihow is really nice, because he asked me to drink more water with that
hoarse voice of mine.

I kinda think that i love Dillon more and more but i don't know why.

I kinda think that school sucks but i'm trying hard to get down to business, and make it for
school everyday.

And, i have nothing more to say, let the pictures do the talking... really really long ago ones.

-No Topic-

2007-12-04T00:52:00.000+08:00

Holiday was good, being able to meet up with one of my best buddy since a fucking 2 year leave
was a treat, and of course, DFS, shopping and the crazy rodeo, cross kart, go cart rides
and painball fun.

Being damaging my own liver in several ways too, this pre holiday mood
has set me drinking n partying way back overseas and back in Singapore.
Barely touching down, plans come flooding in. Gosh,
thank god, in a way, i've been able to make up for the lack of meetings with
friends.

I guess other than wasting money everyday, i have been up to some good,
visiting SPCA with randy, bringing treats to Sugar's house (Frosted Cheerios etc),
conforting, being puff partners... ...

There, sugar's gonna call me anytime soon, so i think thats it for now. More meetings tomorrow,
i think Mod living with the gang, and meet ups with tifanie and nigel. Good Night .

-No Subject-

2007-11-28T01:21:00.000+08:00

We all take things for granted,and think that everything you have now will be there... at least for now.
My honest advises turned into nightmare, as i weaved my words into fairytales,
knowing that problems are best said than left unsaid. Unhappiness which would lead to future
clashes have to be aired, at least made known.

Am i too naive, or am i just stupid. Maybe i do not understand at all.
Tears welled up in me, every night, but i made them not fall,
because i think that that sort of pain is temporary, and only the foolish me would be
that emotional.

Am i wrong to expect too much? Is that too much that i'm asking for?

As i drift in and out of sleep, i turn to no one, but myself,
i tell myself that everything is alright,
until i know that, i am exhausted...

i go back to where i started from.
Thank you for it.

2007-10-22T22:25:00.000+08:00

Why am i here?
With A's just round e corner, to be exact 11 days
i'm gonna fuck things up again.

Not yet another repetition of events, what events i might be wondering?
Fucking things up, knowing of which what yr own duties are,
but always not fufilling them.
I'm halfway there, and never there.
Allow me to rattle my woes,
i'm guilty, "squandering" off my parents money ;;;

overseas trip
allowances
tuition fees
etc.

an irony, why is it that when you loan others money,
you find it so hard to get it back frm e person?
'm always caught in situations like that,
things iwould do:
1) forget it
2) if e person gets reminded of, then i'll take it.
3) i tend to forget

fuck life. its all about spending money and be happy. that was me,
that was what i thought all e time.
i love e feeling of spending money. but,
now i know i have no dreams to back myself in the future.
no dreams.

stupid i may sound, but 'm actually crying for that.
'm really an emotional person, and you might find me crazy.
i don feel like typing anymore. bye.

2007-10-03T21:42:00.000+08:00

Sorry world, treat this as a monologue.

I've lost the motivation to go to sch,
if not for my pw and math,my pathetic struggling group which is seriously lagging laps behind.
I've lost the motivation to go to sch,
because you dont go to sch anymore.
I've lost the motivation to go to sch,
because i hate the suspense,
of not knowing your fate.

whatefuckingever,'m rattling on n on. BYE

new light.

2007-09-24T21:26:00.000+08:00

'm sorry, i know my blogging frequency sucks, and 'm really trying to work on that seeing that the visitorcounts are still going! ):

djya know life's always full of ups and downs,and mine is like a whirlwind thunderstorm.
=/stupid it sounds, I KNOW.

Obviously not meeting parents expectations, that is physically but not mentally studying(okay, like i really did study.no.)
and in which to top that i've alrdy fucked my lifelines ups,so, if 'm lucky,
m gonna stil be in school, if not i'm gonna join "part of mysch'sclique" for private studies or overseas i go.
But, being the always optimistic me i always keep my options open and spirits up, and that is which my weakness comes,
when whatever fate that rains down on me, i might nt be able to take them all, break down cry and move on.

may god bless me.

blahblahblah, sounding stupid alrdy.

"ve never felt this way before or at least no one else did, the feeling of which your heart and soul is not forcefully taken away, but willingly, not partially, but totally, not bitter, but sweet. I do get shock by how immense i am into you, i see no one else. you always make my heart skip a beat, and make me smile. I hope that you'll love me still, for i can only be me and that is the jingyi you'll see. Oh fuck, you're just that cute to me, pardon me, i really do love to smell people, esp you. (:

holy, i cant wait for this coming FRIDAY!!!!
(ITSGONNA BE PICTUREHEAVY)

P.S. weihow/randy/tifanie/gwen/lavender/2,4,6/felix/sann/sam/jordus/zhouren/perry///olivia/ETC,, meet up soon, i'm sorry i've been an idiot for promising to meet but to no avai. ): i was really BUSY.

to top that, i've decided to even keep myself busier,not only with a new someone, but also, humanitarian efforts,
studies(hopefully), to search for my lost dream, begging me mom to let me go overseas myself/organising trips to enrich myself and my interests.

i know all these sounds stupid, but just let me rattle.

i hope you find your own identity soon.
androgynous dressing is my forte not yours/ thanks.

hallelujah, call your momma

2007-08-11T10:10:00.001+08:00

After much comtemplation, i've decided to make this public again.
Don't ask me why, seriously, i have no idea what 'm doing now.
the days are getting better.

gone were the days my formtutor bulldoze the "not-at-all-censored" to
my parents, and my parents had to react very harshly to it. man , iwas
depressed and really afraid of doing anything, xcept,
pretending to read to satisfy my folks, but my mind
driften off to ...

"EGYPT".

(: don asked me why, geez, i think 'm on cloud 9.
i think i have fashion foresight.
years ago, i was already fascinated with egyptian princess and princes.
i totally adore their footwear, i.e. gladiator sandals.
There, here we are spotting people wearing them, beacuse its hot!
ahem, i've bought this pair from katemoss love topshop collection,
justin n 2,4,6, crticised them, but i think its worth it...

RMB: my philosophy, its the shoes and hair that make or break a look.
my number one impression: shoes.

well, wed night was mighty peachy. I had fun at...
SENTOSA,
i hadnt got a fuck idea what was going on, i just knew that i danced my night away,
not appropriately dressed, ending up spoiling my maxmara dress, reaching home the next day,
lucky not to get yelled. see, told you, days are getting better.

with the exception of my brother, his boxing frenzy is getting on my nerves.
the bruise on my face is gone, but
thanks to sha, the two insanely huge bruises, one at e shin and another at the knee
looks like 'm abused or what.
i've got knee jabbed.

damn, i'm way bullshitting, maybe because i am influenced by my
new friend. the talk" cock" king, ( 'm sorry, itssounds bad,so illiterate but thats how
i shld describe someone who loves to talk crap right.

promos in a few weeks time, 'm fking scared, seriously, my mom says, if i'm out this year,
i might be sent to study archae in china. i think its ridiculous, what if i'm a pauper next time,
will anyone want me then?

(i thought it was funny right pam.)

HELLO

2007-06-18T19:17:00.000+08:00

Hello to you few lucky invited readers, this is for you!
Oh my, this statement leaves me feeling like a snob.
I might consider weihow's suggestion on making
it public again,beacause i want my counter hits to be a lot... ):

Can i say, i love my daddy. But i finally deserve a better phone than
my lousy V3! I've been suffering in silence the deprivation of not
being able to text people and even save numbers on my phone.
Then my dad passed to me his old nokia phone, smth better than mine,
smth with a 2 megapixel camera and 3g.
its kinda new, but i really wanted a samsung slide phone,
so my dad asked: "what phone do you want",
i replied" err, a samsung slide phone," and took back my ultra edition, because
my dad was really nice to ask me, and idecided not to demand that much
AND he said, OKAY!
yay, but i don know when is it coming in. hopefully soon!.

you have earned yourself a reputation of being a skinflint.
yes you .

i cannot wait to see my friends in school, some since manado, some since
the end of school, eg: faz,nad,edm,slut,shawn,hilmi, etc.

FOR THE FUCKING INDIVIDUALS

2007-06-16T14:33:00.000+08:00

THANK YOU FOR DRAGGING ME INTO THE RIVER OF MISERY WHEN
THERE IS NOTHING AND NOTHING MORE YOU COULD DO OR SAY,
TO HELP AND SAVE YOUR OWN FUCKING DONKEY ASS.

SORRY DEAR, YOU PUT ME IN A SPOT WHEN I WASNT EVEN
SUPPOSED TO BE IN, MADE A FOOL OUT OF MY NAME AND THINK
I WOULDNT KNOW AND CONTINUE TO LIE YOUR WAY.

IT WASNT YOUR FAULT, BUT YOU MADE A STUPID DECISION
OF NOT INFORMING ME, HA, NOW, I KNOW IT,
AND REALLY, DON THINK YOU CAN LIE AND
THINK I'LL ALWAYS BELIEVE.

STOP USING MY BLOG IN DISMAY!

YOU LIKE IT, START UP ONE YOURSELF N PUT
YOUR CB PICTURE IN I STEAL LA.

Post dedicated to the farm.

2007-06-13T19:09:00.000+08:00

All i really wanted to say was,
the squabbles, grumpiness, pettiness, hiatuses and misunderstandings
only lead me to knowing more of our shortcomings but made me
appreciate you guys more.

Thank you for being there.
And i cannot wait for tomorrow.

So laidback, so DEAD

2007-06-09T14:37:00.000+08:00

I think my heading is obvious enough, too laidback i am these days...
so guilty, making those coffee trips, slacking at cafes and home,
really really ! doing nothing at all!hopefully my teacher doesnt read this.

Its tennis and running and running, and eating yami yoghurt
and ben and jerry's. Very Sinful, yes! very, but, its pure bliss,
not that everything is really smooth sailing, maybe i still
portray that "yeah-i-am-stupid" look.
Edmund,sw you know what i'm blabbering about.

I am starting with project work and homework and studying
hopefully tonight!

Oh yes, i'm going to ann siang hill, town, then clarke quay with
randy,weihow and tifanie, absolutely looking forward to it!
Hopefully i can score some really great deals there....
And its studying with the clique246 on monday!!!
i cant wait to meet those GEBRONIS(weihow) and crack up.

Its been exactly a week since we touched down...

IAM SO PROUD OF MY WEIHOW FOR SCORING OVERSEAS
ATTACHMENT TRIPS!

This was the hut that we ran to every night without fail,
to play, to scream, to taupok and to bath when the girls fell asleep.

ITS A VOLCANIC CRATER!! sulphur!

Vivid Memories of the [ City of Tomohon, Manado, North Sulawesi]

2007-06-03T13:58:00.000+08:00

The sight of almost everyone, (excluding the guys of course)
crying and dreading the flight back to Singapore and me now, still
having lots of mixed feelings as i type out this post.

It sure meant that you have to start mugging, start planning your time
wisely, and having time off to spend with your friends and family and the
occasional time off to get yourself coffee, and no shopping. strict strict
stupid mundane life. I miss Manado.

A 6 days Trip, an opportunity to know more friends, in which i really did...
Though i met certain people who tried to maintain a facade of truth but i
could really see through the deceit, and also people you would never get along with,
no matter what.

Day 1-6 :
I was the first to reach the airport, partially because my father sped
through the highway, monday blues.
Sat at starbucks with my usual espresso, and waited for my friends
to reach quite immediately one after another.

With my black leggings and white shorts, i stuck out like a sore thumb.
However, my surname made it hard for me, for Z is the last of the alphabets,
and i had to sit alone with two other strangers in the aircraft, luckily,
Edmund and Gang was just an aisle away.
Upon reaching Manado, the guides were already so friendly that i really
love it there/. slowslowslow. Hey girl, slow down.

(say hi, edmund and slutty pam)

(say hello to bitchface)

SAM RATULANGI INTERNATIONAL AIRPORT

( Andis love)

( Seismogram)

( Our first Dinner on top of the mountains with Alex (I)

( Charlie Liem, the Wealthy Man with a house 10 times the size of a bungalo in Singapore
and the owner of the Resort)

From the volcano centre, visit to SMA Lokon St. Nicolaus (prestigious school),
Their taditional market with bats, dogs, rats, pork ec ceta for sale, the
dogs caged up waiting to be next, the hiking of volcano mt. mahawu,
visit of different ethnic groups, lake linau with constantly changing
colours, visit of hydrology plants, cemetry, woloan village , kali
mega 10 storey waterfall and padi fields...
...thats how much we accomplished in 6 days accompanied with a
beautiful resort named Highland Resort and Spa.
Unfortunately, the camera broke down the first day, so, its the
first day's picture for now.

And...
The appearance of me... us, on TV twice and Newspaper twice.

Thanks to Edwin,Alex,Emmor,Andis,Edmund,Pam,Shawn,Derrick,Aloysius,Alex(II),
Edgar and the girls in my bunk. The wonderful Taopoks,talks,laughs,accidents,and Incident.

Thats it for now... i'll upload more pictures

STOP copying!

2007-05-20T10:51:00.001+08:00

I wasnt able to write for really long, because blogger was screwed up for a while.

I cant wait for holidays, totally! All the coffee trips i'll get to make,
a little of mugging here and there, and hopefully i don sidetrack for something else.
A little of shopping,meeting up with weihow,randy,tifanie,dennis,priscilla,angela, and the
yettobenamed (clique). Just the thought of it makes me happy.

Oh yes, and the field trip's counting down 8 DAYS!( SHAWN,SLUT,EDMUND)
I'm so so busy, and there's ushering at Raffles Town Club today,(THE CLIQUE)
hopefully it won't be disappointing. I'll upload the pictures later on!

The clique: GLAM IT UP!

mmmm. smell it

2007-05-02T19:51:00.000+08:00

I hadn't been updating in the longest of time, or so i thought. =/
Last night, i received the sweetest text message in the longest time ever
i.e. 5 days ha.

while i was fiddling about, tossing and turning
left and right, trying to find a comfortable position to sleep
for at least an hour and a half, this sweet thing came,
bringing back all the great memories, nothing bad of any sort.
I don't know why i am rambling on all these, but i had to share my joy.

Today was "so" my day, even though my PI was like rejected, but
i managed to get some coffee, espresso! and i think this can fuel me through the night.
So folks, i will be online tonight, online in a offline way. ha. slut knows.

On a random note: i need a new handbag, a leather belt, new shoes, new graffiti tees, n now, i want a coffee maker in my room which works all day

Not in tandem.

2007-04-25T21:10:00.000+08:00

My sudden impulse to write about what happened to my friends and i,
and i really cannot care much as to whoever who reads this.

Its been rather bad today, really,
with explanations to do tomorrow,
suspensions on hold,
2 confirmed alrdy detentions,
PI to be done again,
i don know what more to expect in this already messed up life,
that all these minor matters, not planned, whatsoever,
adding to the alrdy mountains of problems.

2007-04-22T09:26:00.000+08:00

Seems like i'm not gonna receive tags anytime soon, the board
is down.
I met up with weihow just yesterday,
which made me really really happy.
Reminiscing about the past,
laughing like never before,
showing off new
purchases,
and... ... i really do not wish to divulge that much details anymore,
because i get sad all the time,
hearing from my friends unpleasant things said about me.
I shld have remained nonchalant.
I shld have known that
i cant satisfy everyone,
and i wonder whether i shld close down e blog or not.

I am so looking forward for the trip to menado, a getaway
from the such a hassle, such a judgemental place.
i'll get to see the stars,
blow the bubbles,
sing in the dark,
speak for my heart,
understand my friends,
playing poker, and
drinking.

perhaps someone out there knew, cared and truly loved me.

Spring break huh huh?

2007-04-09T18:13:00.000+08:00

Workload is piling up, and i need a cup of coffee to really wake my senses!
My past few hours were spent doing much owed hmwk, dunking espresso,and of course eating.
All of you must try this QQ rice roll thing at novena!Its awesome!Its healthy and delicious, and whats more?
CHEAP!
My past few days were spent in front of a com,at home, pam's hse,everywhere and everytime trying to figure out a software for cutting movies... gp project.Prank calling people on their mobiles,
faking that "chinese accent" and watching porn.
Joking! Semi-porn. Movies that aint censored but totally crude and contains explicit content.
ooh and ahh.
Right now, i'm totally stripped off of my finances, uber late presents,
up and coming presents,overseas trip and COFFEE with ppl who always wanted to meet me.
Meeting randy is always nice, running with jazreel is always fun.

Enough of blabbers. i've got a cool teacher. (; i shall update soon.

MY DOG, when he was still here.

bagels and cofee, topped with reminiscence

2007-03-15T21:32:00.000+08:00

Today i'm a happy girl, i spent my time
pretty fruitful by catching up with an old pal
of mine and also on talking terms with another
counterpart of mine.
"Thank you" to modern technology.
"Thank you" to modern cafes.

Thankfully for you, d, you made me take things slower,
for all the late nights partying n drinking away.
Oh slut, its okay. rlly, we still love you. Its
just a night gone wrong, but its another story
to tell.

I made new friends, friends for keep.

happy birthday baby dharlink. for all e joy you brought me,
maybe a few thousand miles apart, maybe penniless,
but, i think you know.

2007-03-13T12:11:00.000+08:00

I'm just so glad that many cared n asked why i hadnt been
blogging. Lots of things racing thru my mind, however, i can
seem to get any def ans. But nvm abt that.

It seemed like mom n dad got pretty angry with me.
I think that includes my brother. I really got no idea.
form of escape: drinking n shisha n club hopping tonight.
I've gotten a whole bottle of chivas from my dad's wine cabinet.
i just hope i don return back to my former self.

Gwen loves: sorry dharlink. i'm always on disappearing act. still, i rlly miss you n your silly "antics"e.g. cow.
Shao: hardcore tonight.
Kevin sister: oh no. you still visit my blog... ? yes yes bad habit.
PAvitra: give me your link mother.

Pictures from amazing race n camp fire:

2007-03-11T17:15:00.000+08:00

I'll be updating soon. This holiday gonna be real hectic.

2007-02-24T15:37:00.000+08:00

It says that time heals al wounds, but
people change with time too isnt it? Or
was it because of some "external forces"?

Time and again, i tried to convince
myself that "hey no, i'm just pondering too
much, the change was subtle, but then,
you proved it right to me,
you are just like those money suckers which
glow at the sight of it, wide mouth green-
eyed monster, you need it, you call it".

I've decided, thats it, no more of such gullible wishful
thinking. You're gone.

cny =

2007-02-19T08:59:00.000+08:00

Just a random note, i miss ang wei how a.k.a porkball husband very very much.
He's just sucha stalwart person, n i really need him a lot. (:

Chinese New year has no significance to me, pathetic as it seems,
but really, my family don go visiting, i get only 2 red packets, my mom n dad,
if i'm lucky maybe some random stranger, friends of my parents would
offer. All my relatives are overseas, i mean all, so i'm getting really bored now.

I shall be heading down to starbucks later, mug? nah. maybe just chill with hil n leong.
I'll get myself wsted during the march holidays, i really need that.
i bought myself a copy of teen vogue, and sure it got me hooked,
it just sadden me to see how unoriginal and boring certain sg mags are.
Everytime i had to make a trip to kinokuniya, i'm a goner, i'l be getting the only
writing pad i use, which kino offers only, couple of mags, maybe a few books, and
thats bad.

i need an agenda.

2007-02-16T20:59:00.000+08:00

This is going to be a wordy entry. I have half a mind to change to
lj instead, i'm getting sick of this place. ;!

It has been a while since i last had a good hearty laugh,
and i am pretty ardent, looking forwrd to the
next guinea pig game. Life was good, should i say,
i only come to realise how much i had, not knowing how to cherish.

Holland V on valentine was romantic. Remembering last year when i
broke a guy's heart, this year, i spent it quite fruifully, retreating in small corners
of the Ipoh horfun, slurping the mee up, then headed down to starbucks, treating ourselves
to the regular venti's. It was insane, the nonstop laughters and forfeits.
Might seem a boring valentine, but its nice
to hang out with friends, and taking our time.

I find our lives so hectic, rushing for everything,
so much so that you don bother anymore. yes, you.
its okay. I wished people would stop caring how they
look, howmuch money they had, buyin those branded stuff,
so much so that you leave behind your friends.

i am guilty of that, i really do. f,f1,f2,f3,f4,f5,f6 and cb.

2007-02-10T14:50:00.000+08:00

Tag replies:
Gwen dharlink- okay.. its official,we're really for sure going out soon.
Jaz- omg jaz. i think you know who is scott szethoyangming too!
syadhrlink- i've got smth to tell you too.
Grass- meet up soon .

2007-02-09T19:54:00.000+08:00

Am i losing you, and myself?
Or was it wishful thinking of mine.

All the bad omens, i'm falling into a bottomless pit.
why are such happening to me. why.

nocturnal

2007-02-04T03:54:00.000+08:00

3.54am, and sleep has not come to me.
so much things happened today, and i didnt know how
to react to it.

Common test is less than 48hrs away, n
i am not at all prepared, in fact, i don even know
my exam schedule.

I need some booze, some shisha, don judge me,
i need some air.

Tag replies to:

Grass: ranran, we'll meet up PROPERLY the farm outing ok.
Jaz: hey dear, i kinda miss you, catch up soon.
Sya: i hope everything's fine
Pork: i think everything wil work out fine, even though we aint socialising that much alrdy, i still LOVE YOU.
kika: chicago sisters! i miss youuu

Hossan leong's -multiple personalities disorder @ e drama centre.

2007-01-29T22:56:00.000+08:00

Today was accomplishing, aside from
my eyecandy,

i found my longlost friend, he's someone whom i'll
treasure from now onwards.I just realise that when you lose something
would be when you;ll start to treasure.

hooked.

2007-01-28T19:48:00.000+08:00

I'm hooked on online shopping, from hermes to katespade.This is bad
because that would mean excessive spending, and that creates a chance
for my parents to dig at me.

this post is random.

my hawt teacher

something hawt.

2007-01-27T15:05:00.000+08:00

Small confession. I've got an eyecandy.
And, everytime i think of him, i cant help but
smile.

Okay, shall i start by saying happy birthday to shaowei,
celebration was a blast, despite all e weariness.

school's an energy "sucker" . Whatever, it is,
ytd was hawt, because, i went to Island creamery!

this is gonna be short, time to catch up w my dharlinks.

Momentarily lapse... ...

2007-01-21T17:07:00.000+08:00

Just when i thought things could'nt get any
worst,
it did. I had an attack last night,but instead of sympathy
from my dad, he curse it on me going out till late.

Uh-huh, so was that karma? My medical bills blew my mom's
pocket a hole, ahundredplusplus. Say thank you to singapore's
weather. And to add on, i spent more than 10plusplus on cab,
just to get home. Its all so dumb.

Close chapter.

I've been a good girl today, i did homewrk, not a lot, but at least some of the
long overdued ones, and i felt very achieved. But, then again, i'm reminded of my
"financial crisis", which meant, no starbucks next week of something. I would be better off died.

Farm outing was hawt but then again, it wasnt that really good
because of my stuupid temper, i apologise for that. But i do enjoy both of
your prescence.

But, afterall, there are still people who care about me.
Superficiality doesn't always rule. & i know she's adamant in destroying. Thinking toomuch?
Nah.. i used to think i was, but, come to think of it, i felt foolish to be that
gullible. I need some comfort food to alleviate this pain.

Can anyone ans this qn: Does God exist?

mug

2007-01-20T01:30:00.000+08:00

Here i am, this is just part of my break.

i'm still doing homework... i know this sounds insane, but true,
tons of owing holiday homework, and daily assignments... zomg.(hilmi laughs)

but , i'm having an escape tmmr, outing w the farm.

(:

2007-01-17T20:37:00.000+08:00

With so many freshies arnd, yet no eyecandies. What a disappointment.

Something hilarious happened today:

i was out eating with randy n porkball when this oldman
came up to us n say, "which jc is this girl in?" how come
there's paint on her fingers. I was in awe pls. Imean c'mon,
whts your problem.? Oh wells, nothing much.

Anyway, i want to thank all my bff's out there, you
guys know who you are, n to the international big mouth
whore who have nothing better to do than to
gossip about me, n dumb enough to tel it to someone close enough
to me, in fact closer than you do. Stop stating those fictitious fact,
it sounds grotesque, in fact, totally reveals your low mentality andplus,
stop thinking that oh people do not care about you, i am addressing this on behalf FOR my
bff. It is as though you are such a altruistic person. back off pls, don try to be so
proud as though you have a close affinity with us. sorry dear. you're so wrong.
INTL BIG MOUTH . n stop copying the way i dress.

i love farm n dharlinks. n 06a2 pls

2007-01-16T22:53:00.000+08:00

its a sudden emotional outburst...
a accumulation of events...
everything is so misty.

just up for grabs for the bimds.

2007-01-05T22:34:00.000+08:00

Sorry doods. i was sleeping my ass away right when i reached home.
No msn... nothing. so this is e only way.. (: Cough, flu and post dental treatment
pain strikes... !!!

bad bad day... ytd, 2nd day of school. i got caught for my shoes, skirt, and hair... Then,
on the bus, a screwed bus driver made me pay $2.50 cash for my bus fare. so unfair.

2006-12-13T12:35:00.000+08:00

My life's kinda in a mess now, i'm not gonna do an
elaboration for you strangers out there,
for details , are far for only buddies. I don know whats racing
through my mind, how stupid i am, in organising my time,
even though 'm lack of sleep, even though i'm still full,
i don slp till i tell myself i want to, n even if its so, i don slp, till
5-6am, considering i wake up at 8-9am.

So when things happen, it acts as a platform for me,
to bounce up and finally grasp the reality, that,
hey , i ought to do smth, to my screwed up, "only fun" and
"everything else can wait" life.

i donknow why i am blabbering about such "minute" stuff,
but i come to realise, that, there is more than just superficial materiality
i need to care about. A girl's vainess will always be.

I "LOVE" my com

2006-12-03T00:14:00.000+08:00

Guess how angry i am.
Let me tell you, Fucking angry.
I actually took an effort to blog, but apparently,
my stupid computer just decided to play with me,
and blank out yeah. n i din had any back up at all.

___

I cant wait for christmas, because...
i have a galore of

"specially dedicated for christmas accessories"

and because...

" i can eat and eat and eat a lot of good food plus wine till i collapse"

and definitely because...

"i'll get plenty of presents" *hinthint*

___
I peeped at my tons of assignments today, n
guess what, i've totally forgotten everything.
so cool huh.

so cool that i don 2 venti coffee from starbucks today,
i was so tempted to get another one, but was
reminded of caffeine overdose, i don want to die. So,
i din.

___

in case i was missed(sorry to both)oops.
i just wanted to see myself.

random recent pictures.

felix, aaron n me. anyone misses him?

i've got lots to catch up with.

(gwennn!) go out soon ok!

: |

2006-11-27T10:27:00.000+08:00

Okay. shit, i know right, my blogging frequency sucks.
I'll try rlly hard to keep it right.

Mayhem. Thats how my life are these days , if i were to use a word.
I guess, now , its time to take things slow,
maybe, have a good look at whats gone wrong in the past,
what i thought was okay, but not.

pictures next entry (:
i miss my dharlinks.

I NEED, to find time to shop.
(a leopard never changes its spots) how true???
only time will tell.

holidays... eeeeeeeeeee

2006-11-07T10:50:00.000+08:00

I'm weird, we're supposed to love holidays. However, i kinda dread it.

I din work hard enough for my studies,
and now, i have so much to buck up on. ):
The teachers conditions and school's conditions:

1) No speaking of more than 3 sentences in class
2) I cannot be late for lessons anymore
3) I must hand up my assignments on time, if not, i'm gonna get out of school.
4) I have to display a positive attitiude in learning, if not... etc.

Fuck man, like prison. ):

.I've been having this flu, which goes on for like days!
i sneezed like a vacumn cleaner la. help.
The flu posed as a challenge to type this entry,
cos, my eyes are tearing, so shao wei, be touched pls.

.I've been getting random msges these few days,
ppl whom i hadnt been contacting for long, actually
sent me a text n asking me how i was. (:
(i'm remembered)

.I've been having ben n jerry's for consecutive days
sweet (: i'm really persnickety when it comes
to ice cream.

The past week was sucha hassle, looking for a job
desperately, cos my unfeeling parents are still brooding
over my shitass results. (get over it man) , and
of course deluge of photos...

i think there's somethig wrong with blogger,
i cant seem to upload the pictures.

2 major conflicts cleared, n currently
experiencing a love streak. haha/

*************************************

Happy Birthday Priscilla.!
porkball: i miss you
prissy: i'll upload it soon ya
felix: you organise
syasya: fuck that job, n look for me.. (: your forever sun
neighbourhood: meet up pls.
*************************************

(glen n jordus at cine)

i cant upload anymore. ok.

2006-10-29T18:22:00.000+08:00

WATASHI JINGJING

slam dunk. so hilarious.

"Such a hassle" week

2006-10-15T04:08:00.000+08:00

This week flew really fast.
I guess, because i didnt go to school
for a day, and spent the last day being suspended.

School was emo, because, seeing so many
people getting upset,scared over their results,
i have to admit, i am , however, i guess,
there's nothing much we can do, unitl we know our fate,
i'm so nonchalant, but, its pretty much alrdy decided,
n tears wouldnt change a shit of it. (:

Anyway, this week was rather achieving.
I met up with IMJORDUS http://www.fhcukrin-edyotic-jor.blogspot.com/

finally, after 415645156 yrs. I've got this 2 really white pimple
on my face...so sad.. ):
n jordus, squeezed them out with me screaming away... right at gelare, in fareast !
i'm going to get him to send to me the video, thereafter, i'll upload it.

I WENT TO VIVO CITY!
it was really huge. god. i spent 3 hrs with "bitch" on the first level only,
really good labels, first timers in sg are there, GAP, TED_ london, naf-naf,trucco...
omg... you can shop till you drop. Make sure you have
enough cash though,
its so weary to window shop, because, you WANT WANT WANT them...
n the bra fitting room inside tangs itself, was awesome.. pretty!

omg. this entry is so wordy. such an achievement...
bored the readers.
oh wells.
i hope panic @dxo was a success.happened
to be glen's party, i hoped it went well,
din have time to make it.

being bumming arnd town with sw,hilmi,pam, leong and sya...
guess, thats where we would be hanging arnd after exams,
i neeed CLOTHES...!

its 4.20 am now...
omg... i think
this blogskin's really ugly.. like i don know... nevermind...

i will be bloggin more often now!!!
club anyone?

The below concerns only certain people.**

.bitch bitch. (; pls ignore him, and for god sake,
for once, let him know that you're precious n stop
waiting for him.

.syasya... you know there's still someone who loves you out there,
pains to see you like this.

. n to who it may concern...
so this is a game of"who is going to apologise first"?
i don know why you are saying or doing all those hurtful things.
why?you fucking tore my up. not you. pls tell me, its not you.
i'm just imagining .

2006-10-11T00:38:00.000+08:00

zoom; good ol days. (:

RANDOM PICS... i miss e good ol' days.

i'm seriously hurt. by you... spiritually. yes.
i know you're avoiding those on purpose...
when i needed you, youweren't there...

maybe tears would come in handy.

2006-10-08T23:30:00.000+08:00

from now onwards, this slide will remain n be updated !! it will be at the end of all e links.
(:

*to that particular person..

i hope i'm just being over sensitive to this topic.
however, i haven't stoop so low before,
you totally tear me apart,
your heartless words..
so if making use is what you think,
i don know, maybe not referring to me,
but
just to tell you...
i'm really really totally worn out,
by you n your comments,

i needed you so much, but ,
you weren't there.
when the fucker bullies me.

I created a Slide Show! Check it out!

2006-10-08T23:23:00.000+08:00

2006-10-05T00:17:00.000+08:00

Pictures galore...!

The bangles !!

see. i din lie right. the man made it out of hot hot shellac!!
right in front of you!!!!

the lovelies in my class... ...

2006-09-30T19:28:00.000+08:00

AND SHE RETURNS

I'm raiding shao wei's notebk now... ...(:
Finally... its been ages since i last posted an entry...

today marks the end of promos...

think it's not gonna be pleasant...

i''m like cramming everything again...

but, i tried really hard...

know i was so.... sooo... sooo kinda sure that i'll
get out of school that i went to check how much are the fees for
UWC and St Francis... i'm just paranoid.. ):

Okay.. that aside...

p.s: i seriously wish evry human in class gets promoted!... i don wanna get outta sch!...

time to party like really hard... okay,
its kinda embarrassing to say this,
but i wanna try

Tequila Shots pls....
:}
don laugh okay, i only know vodka, n those
magarita shit...
i swear i;m gonna try it.. (:

oh yes.. plenty of activites coming up, partying hard, night outing ... ... shopping...
oh yea, who can forget shopping.

Now my blog looks like some kinda mudder lousy blog w/o
any pictures la, like some cheapo low class one..
okay... i've like only a few pictures, but... ya...
i'm gonna post a deluge of photos up soon!...

okays enough of ranting... n
living in self pity...

(:

introducing what some people might think as hot: p.s. faz
a guy whom i have to tolerate his nonsense. n take bus with..

felix chen a.k.a china man... (:

some random picture of my long time brother...
shao wei... notice my ugly hair... ):
i need a hair cut.. n i'm gonna

chop my hair tmmr...! if i manage to beg e money from
my mom ... taken whilst mugging in sch...

i was stressed, so i decided to "fag"
NO! for __- sake, its a pencil from kino,
go get it, its so cute n its a damn $1.00 . SO cheap.

n. i was so happy.i finally got to meet up with
wei how...
n was even more touched,
when he came to starbucks outta nowhere,
while,
i was studying half way, n
re-appeared with a tumbler i was
eyeing for,
ever since i broke mine! (:
so sweet...

Today:
i went little india today.. with bimdians plus one and sw...
it was sooo hilarious... did henna tatoo and pottery!
n YES. attn to all those vain pots... BANGLES... beautiful bangles costing $3
only , made and shaped from a dough in front of you, colours of your choice...
piping hot materials moulded into shape for you, YES you!
RIGHT in your face! yeah... limited period only. the man will be going back to india
after deepavali forEVER!

those bangles were pretty ok...
i'll defn post up e pictures..! like the next post....

mean while... GO out anyone?

i need to get some beauty sleep first..

anyways.. i love syapaminah..for the lovely present... n pris: aren;t you stup[id. don deny. shao wei and puvan-love love.
n to our lovely mr yew: okay, we've finally seen your cute side.

2006-09-15T21:54:00.000+08:00

-ANGER-

what e hell. i am very very
angry now. my ipod got stolen...
not shuffle, not nano, but ipod video.!
wtf.

This was what happened:
my ipod was in my bag, in a pouch like many
other pouches in my bag. .. my phone n wallet was exposed
like when you open up you'll see it, but...
yet, its my ipod which was like buried deep inside
that was missing. ): you know how bewildered
i was.

to that someone, yeah,
you've won ya?
you've achieve your aim of making
me pissed. i am fucking pissed with you,
n don let me know who you are, because,
if you're a girl, i'm gonna slap you, into a pulp,
if you're a guy. i'm gonna whack you.

BASTARD

fucking low morals you have,
sorry,
i look down on you.

2006-09-10T18:48:00.000+08:00

Okay. I am going to type in perfect diction from now
until promos! (: I think this is the least i can do for my GP.

I think my blog died. I cant seemed to upload
any
any any
any
pictures. ): i'm a total retard in computers.

thankyou wei how. (:i think i must stop mentioning you so
much, in case,
you get an ego boost again.

2006-09-03T18:17:00.000+08:00

Warning: Non existent people, pls do not comment on this entry...

Sunday:
i'm beginning to wonder, whether choosing an A-level route,
was afterall, a naive and impulse decision of mine.
Can someone just tell me i'm for it? I'm beginning to doubt my
capability.

All the stress, and endless "cannot ever be completed assignments"resulted in
the state of my face now... outbreaks... eee. ):

i see, i see all my surrounding friends mugging like
there's no tomorrow,it kinda scares me, and also pisses me off.
cos everytime i asked someone whether they've studied, they always
seemed to give me the same ans... no. :! really or not!?...

Monday:
i was angry, yeah for that dunno whatever shit ok. ya ya. but ya, glad
its over ...

Puvan is finally studying..
(:
anyone wanna join puvan n me in novena ? (: study...
i'm settling to full blast mugging plus, yeah,
complete homeowrk first... ):

i cant post pictures-ultimate sadness...
cos!.. my com's like totally bonkers..
i hope i'm able to post what i've been up to...

our dear shao wei finally mature. pris dhralink seems to get really stupid... oops..
Private and Confidential.------only for people concerned.
****
seeing my best friend, or can i say, someone whom i can trust on, getting
hurt and bruised totally aint nice. dear eebu. daughter of the day..
be strong and you'll be able to breeze thru this...
i love you truckloads... it pains
me to see you in this state, cos
wa,,.. fuck, as i;m writing this,
i just feel like tearing,

dear ___, it tears me,or maybe our hearts aparts...
it really hurts.. :!

SO!
be strong ! (:i can come jurong ok.n be xin yi.

*****
i felt cheated... all of us felt cheated, tell
us the truth, for, no matter what,
yes, no matter what, we lve you so.really.

AND. wei how... gave me aloe vera gel today, i was so touched..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-08-30T13:03:00.000+08:00

And so, i shall remain nonchalant about it.
(:
so our school's having a online lesson thing going on,
n that meant NO SCHOOL .. :D
okay.
i need to go n get my dental done later on,
n i'm gonnamug..
actually mug= doing homework. bcos, the amt of work teachers give
just occupy our time alrdy la, so we r left with no time to really revise!
instead, do homework only...

n

thanks to all who helped me blast back at that loser.
i'm esp touched by jordus!! (:
pris dharlink,shaowei,sya baby... n reenuuu... ...
err.. if i forget anyone ya? big hugs..

weihow. don be scared.
n happy birthday nabila!

2006-08-26T23:15:00.000+08:00

I ATTRACT SPAMMERS... lmao. :D YAY

wow... i'm glad to know that ppl are so zealous about
my life... probing into what i'm doing, including how i look
like... great job flamers... (:

To all who got their blog spammed before...
i know how you feel, exactly...
there are people out there who just
aint comfortable to reveal their own names,
but its clever of them to adopt anonymous as their name...
i admire brave ppl...

n i don understand why people take a delight
into tearing people apart... too bad you failed terribly... ..... (:
HAHA

hi anonymous... feeling the angst? feeling high? feeling high to spout nonsense again....?
come la... i love it a lot... lucky you.. i take that as a challenge...

OMG. did i mentioned... when this matter got big.. people just said you are jealous..
don be so stupid again ok? if its because of trivial matters you're upset with me or anyone..
go ahead n confront.. ya?-the end -

**Shall continue updating***
Wednesday:
Had a soccer tournament with other houses... of course WIN LA!...
i had to apologise to that girl whom i accidentally albowed.. sorry dear, it wasnt on purpose..
): oh . n tongues are wagging about my hse playing rough,
i'm sorry to hear that if we do , but wwe didnt on intention.

Friday:
Netball interhse* um.. yes! we won again!>.. ya, after much struggle la...poor
felix n pam got their kness pained again... ): take care dharlinks...

omg. today, we joined in the woman's weekly roadshow, n donated our kisss. urm. shaowei,
YEs. he's a guy GAve his kiss away... with lipstick on... i cant upload the pics, but ya,
it was REAL FUNNY!

Oh yes..
To my:

.A-b-C gang... : so hilarious.!
.Pris dharlink: i love you loads, more n more....
.shaoweiiiiii: thanks for helping.... kissie.(: haha.
.sya dharlink : our lil secret... shhh.
.pam dharlink: dead AH?
.felix: see. i mentioned about you!
.lala: thanks dear.oh that entry wasnt about you.. no worries.. (:
.n my dear wei how: (: BIG MONEY!... don be moody ok...

just to end off... i'm gonna be real busy... (:

2006-08-19T22:29:00.000+08:00

Omg... hectic hectic...
):
to much dismay, i'm so worn out...
the whole of this week was spent doodling in class,
tryin my very best to concentrate, rushing for assignments,
dissapointed by particular people,trying to revise(actually, to restudy what
i had missed out from the past daydreaming in class**.)

THANKS! to those who tagged... my blogging frequency improved la!
actually i blog only when wei how prompt me to. (:

How do you feel, when you once had a best friend, whom you shared everything with,
but time n again, you were lied upon,and felt used, you helped your best friend out, and gave
in whatever youcould, however, in turn to be disappointed, n then, it turns to hatred. omzg.
so scary. ya la ya la, forgive n forget right...
but, i'm
glad that i have a bunch of friends out there, whom remained true at heart,
though,
its hard nowadays,
n always really there for me,
thanks.

i'm craving for some starbucks now... ): if only, IF!
someone would bring it over to my hse...I"LL MARRY YOU! (: haha

I NEED TO MUG ALRDY!

anyway, to the person, you know who i'm ref to: no worries aight.. its only that
particular 2 or maybe 1 that aint being true to you... you've still got plenty,
it pains to see you like that. so weird....

OH. n i forgot to say, i cant post pictures lalalalr... cos my com auto deleted all my pictures ! DAMN.

2006-08-11T21:10:00.000+08:00

Chicken ne ne ... is that how ppl used it? :) ok.
Everyone's like" jingyi, your blog is dead"... so,i've finally taken
time off to blog for once, yabba yabba, my blogging frequency sucks la.
:!
Friday-
i was down for suspension today, apparently,dued to some late handing up
of chinese file only! n lao shi said pam n i were liars, lying to her everytime,
n promising her all e time to hand up on time but to no avail... fine... we were SUPPOSED,
to be down for detention, n then, for some minah's mp3 player, we went to repair it, n was
late was detention, n fuck, like that teeney weeny late, we were down for suspesion alrdy...
):
much unhappiness happened today, some misunderstandings, some "merajok". but i'm
glad everything's fine... alrdy... as e sayin goes" what doesnt't kills, makes you stronger" quote gracie.. (:______________ to that someone: i'm glad i've finally managed to muster up courage to say it to you... its for you to judge... thanks for being there.. love you!.. :*

Wednesday: NATIONAL DAY....
Today was NEIGHBOURHOOD dayout. in case if you guys dunno what's
neighbourhood, its my 1st 3 mmnths clique..i love them to bits...yay, finally managed to make my dharlink weihow meet up with felix! (: felix: wei how said yourock la. "PUAY BONG" hehe
some minah lai,donno wher she went out dating with ! i've finally hit e shops after such a
"teehee328473847" long time... however din buy anythin, but i did spent lotsa money on coffee.
in case again, if you guys din know, i love starbucks till i'm dead. sam,renjie n perry, which i love n sayang a lot... i miss you guys like a nutcase now.... meet up soon PLS. (: i DON miss felix.

An Answer to my addiction for caffeine.( i want that starbucks bottle la... i dropped mine!!!) )))::::
A gazilion of people asked me why i loved coffee, (esp STARBUCKS) so much, erm, kinda embarrasing to say, but coffee makes me shit, n i love that shitting feeling... erm n of course,
i love the taste LA!, but e weird sad thing is, i can still sleep like a log n snooze e alarm a
million times, which always never fail to help me stay awake thru e night!!

DEDICATED TO MY ONE N ONLY: best best lovelie ball.
weihow, my lovely dharlink, whom was there everytime i needed a crying shoulder.so anyone,
if you guys do need a strong, n broad shoulder to cry on, n a big mouth to bitch with, n
not forgetting some laughin gas, feel free to approach him, whom wll nv fail to say" don, don don.". :D

n my lovelie felix... i hate you being neutral... it pisses me off, la, not satisfying my answer to bitch, but i still love you. (:

2006-07-21T23:38:00.000+08:00

Dood... ...

I need to thank those arnd me, in which i needed them the most, in my
most down, n bitchiest mood ever... they cheered me up.
cheerios... weihow,pam,syahira,puvan,faz and the list goes on.

(: some random guy from starbucks asked for my name. its weird, because i
hadnt been frequenting myself in social places ever since i'm broke...n therefore,
no guys approach.. YAY... guess, i'm still wanted right, felix..
i strolled home. i guess i just need to breathe..
glad that i'm actually being optimistic now..

i miss neighbourhood but i doubt some will be reading this though..
but i do miss you guys hell loads.

mids was horrible. guess the past months was spent, idling arnd,joking arnd.
i swear i'm gonna get serious now... shits. why am i so emo nowadays... damn,
i'm crapping...
bye lovelies. i'm gonna be fine. (: i guess i deserve a pat on my back.

2006-07-13T20:19:00.000+08:00

In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared

In THE years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets

Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you

Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in your heart,
is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts,
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
'CAUSE true love never dies

In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things

we'll wish we'd never said

In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other
Standing on the same street corner though it rains

Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only I could stop the world
I'd make this last

Sometimes goodbye, THOUGH it hurts in your heart,
is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, THOUGH it hurts,
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye (so say goodbye)
But don't you cry
'CAUSE true love never dies

And when you need my arms to run into
I'll comfort you
Nothing will ever change the way I feel

Sometimes goodbye, THOUGH it hurts in your heart,
is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, THOUGH it hurts,
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every day
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Because a true love never dies

you know its for you... guess its fuckin useless now.@=

2006-07-08T02:13:00.000+08:00

Finally its over!

n so i thought i shan dwell on stupid things anymore.

Exams are driving me nuts. Gosh, i'm totally caffeine
addicted, any sponsors for Starbucks.? I'm gonna flung,
cos i either left the question blank, or i crap my way thru.

Holooooooidays was sucha hassle for me...
Other than irky MOS,

been to esplanade with my class, for an
artsy fartsy thingy.

(my dharlinks)(pam was shorter than me ) OH

(my lovely class)

oh. and not forgetting that, i finally spent time with my
brother out tgt with my folks n we dined at lawry's!! @paragon..
it cost like a f***ing bomb, 400 ++
i only managed to capture a shot before i was asked to keep my cam.

aint thats it. i'm gonna keep you guys updated...

oh ken... i cant wait for you to comeback to sg n drink coffee n talk sense
n scream at me. (:

felix: i miss you la.
perry,sann,sam, zhouren...jac..

of course my dharlink babies,sya n pam who got into shit! syahira was finally caught for skirt!
(:

2006-06-24T11:33:00.000+08:00

help. i'm officially broke. seriously, if anyone wants to contribute to my fund.

i regretted helping out friends, i hate those people whom back out on me,
you know who you are! i am very very angry, because you lied, n promised me,and i reserved it for you,
JUST TO FIND OUT, you din want it. oh yea , so ihad to pay them myself. a few thousand dollars, all my commision and my own allowance in! ya, fuck, all the shit i get into. i am amazed... n i had enough pls. thats it. i learnt my lesson. fuck you bastards.

ee.e.e.ee.e.e.jingyi the bitch

2006-06-05T19:34:00.000+08:00

(gina, you go n die)!

Omgosh, i hadnt been updating for like, weeks... ...
Okay... date back to Vaunt, which sucks ... ... Pamela sneaked into my old hse,
n we spent like 2 nights there, sneaking in and out... ... n pam slipped on one of my heels
which i dragged all over town, from hm, just to bring it all out and let her try...

Vaunt was disappointing. Mayhem... .... it can almost be compared to a stampede,
people trampling over my toes n i, screaming out loud" fuck". Before that,sam n company were
bounced out cos they din bring IC. poor thing. but, i managed to get a few free cashcards for them.
Sam dharlink...! there's still 18th okay. Pamela n me were the only ones on guest list and vip, which is
NOT AL ALL FUN w/o your friends, but we were like damnbitchy, the queue was fucking long, all the way to liang court, n pamela n i, made the "clark clark" sound all the way to the front, n got in with ease. haha.

Seeing people whom which i thought were going tuition instead of clubbing,"decked out in jeans and shoes and t shirt""" "" SCREAM: omg....oh yes, i forgot to mention, pamela n i was drinking at some orchard place before Vaunt, playing 5 10 tag team championship. Thannks HUH YEO JUNYU! :D n ow we're addicted..

N well, i dunno how we managed to pull ourselves out of bed, we reached hm like 6 am, and woke up like real early to go to sch n attend maths lessons, LATE of course. we were never early la. OMGOMG did i say, i saw perry at club, perry i miss you hell LOADS> felix, sann zhou, ... fuck ... pls plspls, can we like meet up... its been like 45743758935737584 yrs!.

Oh my, so many stuff not updated.!!! i hadnt mention abt our carnival. Carnival was a major success!
our beloved dm got dunked huh! how do you like it!!

(my lovely classmates)

neighbourhood....!

our dm: IVAN LIM!

Felt so guilty, too much fun is bad. I've been missing lessons like crazy, sometimes i dun
even know there's remedial. omg. syahira!

(clique in class)

Shopping with pamela n shiyan!

Then just last friday, pam n me went to malaysia to shop, after we got psycho"ed" by 3 PEOPLE!fine. then.
the two of us just continued with the journey to malaysia. my sweetheart was so worried bout us. (:
haha. anyway, we're like so clever, n managed to make our way back OKAY!. in one piece. safe n sound.

(in the cab.. malaysia's highway... )

"Rebirth" at MOS,18th june.
16 yrs and above, relaunch of Indulge and Uberture.
No bus pass, only IC.
All rooms open. Alcoholic/Non alcoholic.
Alcohol- 18 yrs n above with id to prove.
$18... guaranteed no mayhem like Vaunt, because its different organisers, better systems!
Get tix or more info , contact JINGYI@98566364

(FELIX: LOOK"

2006-05-28T19:17:00.000+08:00

updates coming up.

2006-05-16T20:54:00.000+08:00

How do you like it, being mia for long.
I'm so lost, i dunno what i'm doing with my life.
i'm like wasting time in sch, everyday,
i cant keep my head up, i sleep, i talk.

i miss class. i'm like, didnt go to sch today. cos
i think i fuckin gave myself an excuse not to.
i'm tired, thats all i could think of. I can sleep, even whilst doing
homwork halfway. huh/ cant even recognise my lovelies voice over the phone.

true enuf.i had infection on my foot. yeah. how do you guys like it. i was screwed by the
doctor. funny doc. need to go back for wraps again, n some more infections. fuck.
fucking sucked my money, 41 BUCKS. fuck. n what. i'm havin a headche now. i'm effin dead.

how i miss this. huh/

2006-05-07T21:59:00.000+08:00

i mug n mug n mug n mug n mug.
but had only 2 essays completed. omgosh. ):

2006-05-07T12:37:00.000+08:00

Omgosh.! sorry for this very much delayed post. (:
The past week was so not productive at all. I basically slept
my way thru for every class. ):

All my eyebags,dark rings, and breakouts. Oh NO!

This is damn random, but i must say,
I MISS NEIGHBOURHOOD.
sam,sann,pam,felix,zhou,perry,jac,ren,

(ages ago. lingers on. fuck. feel like tearing)

i hope we do catch up soon, cos we've been meeting lesser, n lesser!
felix-whom we used to meet on bus everyday r sitting further n further. nearer n nearer to new girls...!!!!!!!!! ): ):

(felix: so how do you like this now!??? our everyday antics on bus)!

to my amazement,pam n i create so much havoc in class everyday, getting into trouble evryday with teacher, (sam you're not alone), YET.. we got a postcard , from our form teacher!!! YES, a post card, commending on our good behavior.
Apparently, mr yew,(our ft) says that i din throw my tantrum when i got caught for skirt... (:

last week, went to sbc(singapore basketball court)to watch mi vs jj.n of course, mi thrased jj. (: n guess who i saw, pervertic shortie gross GINA!

left to right: tall, short , tall. (: (how do you like it gina)
oh to gina: hey, not that i do not contact you aft the shoes okay... i miss yu hell
loads.. (: just that i'm really tired. ... ...

TO WEIHOW: look ,aint you handsome here, my dharlink . haha.

sorry, i don have much to blog. real tired. but i promise, i'll blog more often n update...to felix: no my blog aint boring!!

Vaunt @ MOS. get tics from me ! 98566364

fuckin HELL week.

2006-04-22T11:07:00.000+08:00

(cam whoring):D

This week was horrible. i dunno whether e discipline master is picking on me or what .
Pam said he aint, but i think like wise.

Eg:
wednesday: while i was walking backto class, IVAN LIM( dm) bumped into me n said"
YOUR SKIRT IS TOO SHORT! UNHEM it NOW!" so he went to tell my teacher n ask me to see him in the canteen after i'm done. FINE THEN. pam n i went to the toilet to
swop skirts, cos she's tall n i'm A LIL shorter, her skirt fall naturally at my knee.
so i went down to e canteen, packed with so many ppl!! n he asked why i din unhem my skkirt so
i explained that i wore it high just now! n he SAID REAL LOUD!!! I DON CARE UN HEM IT NOW!
i waslike wtf , fine i din wanna unhem the back of e skirt so i only unhem the front, n he asked me to turn one round, fine, i turn!! n he asked why i din unhem the back so i said, i couldnt see! N HE SCREAMED at me, saying "I DON CARE! YOU THINK OF A WAY TO UNHEM IT NOW!"
):
i rip it out , n turned one complete round, like a fool at the canteen before going back to class. fuck man. total embarrassement.

THURSDAY:
i accidentally ripped off one of my pe shorts slit, just like how pam did too, n the fuckin dmwalked past me n sstarted hurling insults like, why do i like to reveal myself so much, do i have modesty or dignity.

i can almost cry. ):

but still, i'm as happy as ever. bcos i'm surrounded with frens who gave me hugs, n concern. IVAN LIM! you think you can bring me down? HUH . PUI

OHOH. we were supposed to bring can food for the elderly, n guesswhat, we were so hungry that we stareted prying the can's with my scissors!!!!!!!!!! hitting n banging. BUT TO NO AVAIL.

(: :D

being meeting up with neighbourhood lesser, but then, ytd, everyone from neighbourhood, called my phone at least once! HAPPINESS! haha . sam,perry,zhou, sann, miss you guys like mad totally. :D felix n pamela i don miss OKAY!. everyday bully me.

(saturday) supposed studyin, ended up cam whoring, laughing, n our all time fav, eating good food.!

sunday: 23rd april

wee. finallymet up with sam n pam to study!!!...sam shu qin, that careless woman, almost lost her phone!!!!! in the toilet....!! but then one kind fella returned it back to her!! obviously, i'mher lucky star, w'o me, the phone would be lost

AND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I"VE GOT A INDIVIDUAL FOLDER IN HER COM. PICS OF ME N HER ONLY! haha
i'm sosososososoososso honoured!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D i'm valued ok!

she thinks she's hip, true LA!

(spastic)

(random , puvan the flirt)

(cute wei how)

MEt up with so many ppl this week, chatted with too, glad that i'm catchin up. sam,sann,pam,felix,perry,zhou,jac,jaz,christ, wei , ... miss you lovelies!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D
i just chopped my hair.. ITS UGLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :( ):

(UGLY , horrible, messy cropped HAIR)

i just found out, so many ppl visit my blog. :D happiness thanks to all for visiting

2006-04-08T22:02:00.000+08:00

MOS*(ministry of sound) PARTY 30th MAY
ALCHOLIC/NON ALCOHOLIC
all rooms open.
16 n above. (id check)

pre sale tix @ $18(w one drink)
Door sales @ $22

presales would come with a designed cash card!!! can be used
after the night.. LIMITED NUMBERS!
alcoholic only avail for ppl with id's above 18.

CONTACT JINGYI or PAMELA
98566364/98180301

CONTACT JINGYI or PAMELA
98566364/98180301

Anyway,this week was real tiring for me.
Pamela n i slogged thru this week real bad.
Got caught by mr ng for making the "tsk" sound during lecture.

Met jazreel n christine.!!! my fellow ncc girls... miss you two okay... really dearly.!!!
Been spendin almost so many hr;s in sch with a slut okay!!! omgosh...
Felt bad, cos we always made felix morning call us n reserve two seats on e bus
for us!!
haha. n made him kneel down in front of us in e canteen. so reluctantly.!

i so missed sann, sam, zhou ren , perry,jordus and GINA! too.

ANNOUNCEMENT!

pls donate money to (PERRY GRAPHIC CALCULATOR FUND)
poor boy, whom lost his graphic calculator somewher by some bastards.
$148... pls. a few cents helped too. 2 yr jc at cjc, its real stress alrdy, no gc =
no proper lessons. he's way behind in maths alrdy pls help. ANY INTERESTED PARTIES,
pls contact pamela or jingyi @ 98180301 or 98566364./

look perry! haha.

oh i dunno why there are girls who don like pam n i in sch. maybe we really look like bitches or what. n i dunno why ppl take delight, once again ,in tearing us apart. Is badmouthing,n bitching all you ppl know. oh is it, you're been jealous, of how happy we are in sch n everywher. n you aint getting attention. then i'm oh so sorry, too bad.

Some say we're noisy, but that cant change who we are, i mean, not do you girls only pick on us, but other girls too just bcos they said hi to your GUY frens HUH!. grow up. time to mature, OR DON WASte your time to bitch, might as welll GO N ENJOY HAVING SOME ORGIES!!!
oh no. penchant for orgies HUH!

lmao.

2006-04-01T21:52:00.000+08:00

Omgness. This week was HECTIC!
oh no. tired. tired to the extend that i had no choice
but to slp durin lectures n risk being chased out.(Almost, by MR ERIC)

wth.

i'm like havin less than 5 hrs of slp everyday, n having more than 10 hrs of lesosns
each day... ... its just so tiring n stress, n that when your classmates knows whats happening n you're
not....

that other day, i was so touched by gina the bitch when she text me
something really touchy like she's concern bout me! :D

aniways. i'm missing neighbourhood as usuall!!!!!! deluge of pics coming up!!
maybe not that much. this week was spent much in a furry, for, pam n my skirt was caught
fuck man. c;mon, so many other ppl ar ehaving so short skirts!!! n its always pam n me getting caught! are we that prominent!!!! n cup head picks on US! always lectures us durin lessons!!!
there's this slutty teacher whom also lectures us all e time.!!!!!

gosh,. my hopes of being a sc, might be dashed man!

TODAY:

went out to study with slut,bitch,perry,timothy.
n then perry did this on my calculator! so pretty pls. like me :D haha

SO

this is perry!!! haha. he just kinda shaved his hair!!/
anyway,girls, he's from CJC! smart, clever, handsome,
cute, retarded. anything you want.
SINGLE N AVAILABLE!!! grab him . cos he's as hot as
HOTCAKES! :D:D:D:D:D

aha. then perry tried to get FRESH with the table!! oh no. this is what we do, when
studying gets bored!!!

aha. n painting of GUYS finger nails!!!

n taking slutty pictures.!!!

LAST BUT NOT LEAST

introducing one slut who sits beside me, takes the bus to go to sch with me,
go home with me, go studyin with me, go toilet with me, go crazy with me, get
scolded by teachers with me, get caught for skirt with me, shares a locker with me, always
stealing my perfume, n wet wipes, n going to training late with me, stealing my coffee all e time,
taking my stationery all e time,... SLUT MAN. PAMELA LAI PEI MEI!. felix... PLS PIty me.
OH DID i mention.. hhaa
felix knelt down in front of us to beg us!! hehe.

everytime, felix goes to e 7-11, it serves as a opportunity for us to eat the craze hotties there!